Cyrsti's Condo

Unemployed transgendered model from India.

By now you have probably heard about "Jackie Green." At the age of ten, "Jack" started wearing girls uniforms to school and at the age of sixteen became Jackie officially after completing SRS. (Sex Reassignment Surgery) At the age of 18, she is now a contestant for the "Miss England" beauty pageant! "You Go Girl!"

A friend of mine designs her own line of bracelets, bags and jewelry.  I was looking over her web site and came across at least a couple of pieces that may be of interest to some of you. Particuarly if you are into the "Goth" culture or are looking for a special addition to your exotic Halloween costume check out this hand made bracelet! Fishnet hose, a short lacy black dress, boots and a head full of out of control dark hair and the evening is yours with this bracelet completing your outfit! Check out more at Liz's website. Cyrsti

I was planning what I was going to wear as I made my way home from work. The weather has started to ever so slightly make it's way to a cooler fall so I could wear a soft clingy top I almost forgot I owned. It sort of screamed "Hey you! Don't forget about me!" I call the top "breast orientated" it definitely highlights the shape and size of my breasts and requires just the right bra. I wear a very soft bra with very little shape.  My breast forms fill out the bra and in turn the top very dramatically. (even giving the slightest hint of nipples). All of this is very exciting of course but the top has a couple other benefits. The sleeves are long enough to comfortably cover my wrists which will always be thick.  It is also long enough to fall to the curve of my hips created with a couple small hip pads. Add a pair of my favorite religious jeans (wholly) with big flair bottoms, flip flops and a long strapped bag and the outfit was complete and dee-licicious!!!

Last night proved to be a fun and interesting evening. The hot weather is continuing in my part of the world and I was able to wear a very lightweight dress I have had in the closet for a while. The slight breeze on my legs did provide some relief from the heat! My first stop was a reunion of sorts. I met a delightful couple I hadn't seen for awhile.  In the past I even took them up on an invite for pizza at their apartment.  We caught up on some girl talk while the husband hung out with another guy.  The only negative was when she used the wrong pronoun (he) with me. She was more embarassed than I was. Later in the evening by accident I ran into a going away party. I knew several in the group and was able to talk to some women I hadn't seen for awhile. More girl talk about family, life and clothes. The evening can be summed up like the dress I wore. Lite, airy and suggestive at times!

ARIANDA SODI from Chile.  No hormones or surgery. Then again Barry Bonds never took steroids!

We haven't really covered much of the Transsexual vs Transgender discussion. I am very sure I don't fall into the transsexual category for one major reason. I want to live as a girl. I don't have to. Nothing told me when I was seven that I was a girl. Something did tell me at 10 I was very different. Life went on and signposts slowly were pointing me towards my female side. Comments such as "you look better as a girl"  made me want more.  The trial and error learning process of living female in the public's eye left me wanting still more. So what came first. The want or the need? I can tell you the want has allowed me to feel deeply satisfied in the female role.  Do I need to?  I'm sure if you took the opportunity to live female away tomorrow; I'm certain I would need to. Does it matter? No, not really in the scope of life. I do wonder sometimes how the transsexual tag fits me. Then again, I'm probably the only one. My circle of friends don&#

Hi friends, just wanted to catch up on the week.  The weather is been very hot and humid in my part of the world. So bad as a matter of fact that some of my faves closed early last night from lack of business. The challenge of course is to be able to dress for the heat and not melt. I'm not exactly sure, but this summer I seem to melt less and my makeup stays put. I have finally found a foundation I use which covers well with less. The fun part of the summer is I have been able to put together several new outfits. Always a major problem. I believe I have told you I can not shave my arms so covering them is a problem. The solution has been several several very light weight tops that I wear over bras and halter tops or even nothing at all. I have been able to finally highlight a woman's best fashion accessory in the summer...skin. Flip flops, bare legs and a short flared skirt are fun to wear and help to cool a warm evening. My diet has served me well in that I can open my

"He's a man who is fundamentally a woman." I heard the quote in a movie called Kinky Boots The movie is an independent film from 2005.  A man inherits a failing conservative shoe factory from his Dad in England. By accident he ends up helping a drag queen getting beat up out side of a club.  The two form sort of a bond and the idea of manufacturing a line of boots and shoes for performers etc comes to fruitiion. Slowly, the factory workers come to accept the idea and the person behind it. The link above will direct you to a YouTube trailer on the movie. Worth a check if you haven't seen it! Cyrsti

It is very hard for me to believe I can go back on the blog now and see what I was up to a year ago.  Have I learned anything or not? Here is one of those posts I would like to share: "Becoming transgenderized takes a lot of work! In my little corner of the world the heat and humidity has returned- along with the need for cool summer fashion. The transgenderized process becomes a bigger challenge. Obviously  body hair is a priority along with foot and toe nail maintenance. No winter jeans, sweaters and boots to cover imperfections. Fortunately, I've been able to put together some outfits that have presented well. No matter how you present and how complete the transgenderized process becomes, you still have to exude the confidence to enjoy the process. There is nothing wrong with me! One very good way to build your confidence is with the "sun glass" game.(Or destroy it) Put on your best outfit and your sharpest sun glasses and head for people.  My choice

The look of the night last night was fun-fun -fun! As luck would have it, I enjoyed lavish attention from male bartenders all night long. A close leg shave and tanning lotion gave me the wonderful soft feel I love on a hot day with a short skirt. The evening never cooled down much as I made my way through it. Long hair brushing slightly on my bare shoulders and back was a constant sensory thrill. I know I gave more than one show as an older guy nearly lost his baseball hat turning to look at me walking slowly across the parking lot. Sunglasses gave me the opportunity to really watch him watch me without really knowing it. I'm told I have the legs to show, so why not? I did mention the "slow" part of the walk. At that point in time I was celebrating my own start to the "Independence Day" weekend. We all know "independence" is not a one day, week or year deal.  A person has to fight for it and nourish it to make it happen. The nourishment of find

Janie (who I respect so much) commented on my "Ouch" post. Her comment started my thought processes. Where have I taken myself since? The easiest answer is looks. I did go back to my dark look as suggested by more than one of you. (Thanks) A much deeper change took place too.  I rededicated myself to my chosen gender. No matter how I feel between the ears, my physical presence will always be a work in process. "Walking the talk" so to speak.  We all know how many factors are involved regardless of looks. Posture, voice mannerisms all play a part. I believe I had become too complacent. Too much of my male came through. I entered a work cycle which by necessity is male. I didn't flip the gender switch completely.  I was lazy and over confident. I learned again to take nothing for granted!

Well it finally happened, a terrible nite out. Deep down inside I knew it was going to happen and maybe even I subconsciously willed it. Well, I wish I hadn't and  I don't know why it did. First of all I pushed my luck and went to a place where I had never been totally welcomed by the staff. I stayed away for nearly six months and decided to try it again. Wrong idea. I made a quick bathroom trip and 15 minutes later was paid a visit by a female cop. She was nice enough as she told me there was a complaint lodged against me. Use the men's room...right. I said I was leaving anyway and no problem. Should have known better. The whole area is a "redneck" suburb and not normally where I go. Guess where I won't be going in the future! By this time I was a little off kilter and made a decision to head to one of my "semi safe places" Went in,sat down and was nearly laughed away by these two guys sitting close to me. What the hell? I had gone literally mo

NPR is running a story on " Michelle Enfield " a transgendered woman from Los Angeles. Michelle is part of the Navajo nation. She has been on hormone replacement therapy since 1997 and recounts the story of her family accepting her. Here is an excerpt: My family had already been accepting of me through all the different stages of my life because as a Dine' (Navajo), our people see LGBT individuals as having many healing energies. I have been discriminated against; I've been sexually and physically abused; I've loved and have been loved. Learning to take care of myself emotionally requires me to be happy with all of me. I must accept and learn from all of my experiences because they make me who I am today. Michelle Enfield I have said before how fascinated I am with the Dine' and their culture.