Santa Came Early This Year!

"H" day with the VA has came and gone and yes Santa did give me one of the bigger gifts of my life.
I am so thrilled. My Estrogen and Testosterone Blockers are on the way!!!!
Today unfolded with a very ill at ease VA doctor.  By his own admission he was not negative about my situation but ignorant in his knowledge of it.
The end result was he would certainly make sure the VA would provide my meds IF I got them prescribed by a physician who would and could monitor me for side effects.
Fair enough! What the situation amounts to is I have a five month supply of the meds coming sometime after Christmas. The only real money I will have to come up with is for a couple more "maintenance" check ups during the year.
I feel there is also a chance my Doc at the VA will mellow out about the possible side effects of my two new meds and just renew them on his own.
During our "chat" I did feel a little sorry for him when he was reading me the possible side effects of the two drugs from his computer. He reminded me my breasts could be a little sore and tender or even swell up! (I hope so!) He went on to read estrogen taken over a long period of time will likely increase and rearrange my body mass.
I could only guess the look of relief or anticipation I must have had on my face because his attitude began to change. He began to be more personal and even touched my arm for reassurance on my way out.
Several times along this jounrey with the VA I have expressed my frustration with the results I was expereincing.
At this point I have to tell  you the people I have met have all treated me with respect and did their best to help me.
After a short period of time and as much as I want to reward Santa with a huge kiss, I also know all of this is just the beginning of another huge chapter of my life. Many twists and turns are to come on this transgendered journey.
I just hope they are well lit!

German "Tootsie" Trailer!

"Rubblediekatz"  movie trailer. Obviously better if you speak German,,,but you get the point!

Womanless Pageant Beauty!

Just another "beginner" from the WYRE Womanless Beauty Pageant.  There are more pix on "Facebook"
Most are not good but she is!

Changes in Attitude-Changes in Latitude.

I am finding more and more the small things make the girl.
No more quick shower and shave and out the door.
As my hair grows longer, washing it is becoming a completely different and lengthy process. (Only the beginning!)
Skin care is also a priority. A complete cleaning and an application of moisturizing/wrinkle cream adds time to the process. I then went to the Chap Stick for my  lips and lotion for my hands and elbows. Keep in mind this daily process is only the beginning!
None of it includes any makeup or hair removal.
A woman told me a long time she was part of the "high maintenance" gender. I assumed at the time she was talking about female emotional and hormonal issues or even fashion and appearance challenges.
Little did I know the true meaning of "high maintenance"!
More changes in "attitude" are coming up in my next post. My doctors visit at the VA was really interesting!!!

This Week's "Horror" Scope!

Libra (September 23- October 22)
Break out of the routine and let your baby have his way this week. As it goes, there is likely going to be a struggle for power in where you go and what plans you want to set. While it’s nice to have traditions, understand you’ve done them all as good as you can and something new will live in your memory books must stronger; seriously, listen to what your honey has to say!
Nothing earth shattering this week.
The only juicy part is the use of the "his" word with baby-and me! Is he or isn't he!!!!!!!!!!!

"Horror Scope" comes from "the Frisky". My term not theirs.

Transgendered Time Line

Tomorrow the hormonal epic continues.
I have an appointment with my primary VA Doc to FINALLY get the hormone scripts I have approved to be filled through the VA.
I know this road has really only been about 6 months...but the journey  has been a lifetime dream it seems. If I knew it or not!

Poetic Justice?

It takes a male supermodel (Andrej Pejic) to model a push up bra!

Virginia Prince-Role Model?

If you are more mature you will remember Virginia Prince and her book "How to Be Female Though Male".(1979) and an earlier book "The Transvestite and His Wife".(1967).
Recently, Prince who passed away in 2009 has been credited and not credited with first using the Transgendered term.
Regardless of all of that, I remember buying both books and wishing I still had them as transgendered collector items! I'm thinking of coming up with the 12 bucks or so to reread them to see what is still relevant. As far as I know it all  could be.
When I read it I was 30 something and really going through my transgendered adolescence. I viewed Prince as a prude Grandma type (and still do!) But I did use both books to help educate my wife!
Every once in awhile, her name does come up and I even thought of her the other night in a restroom.  I was going through my purse looking for my lipstick. As I was looking I came across the "feminine hygiene product" I carry in my purse. Why do I carry it? Because so many years ago my "Grannie Virginia" said I should.  She said it was a sure fire way to solidify your female image in the women's room. You could be able to help a fellow girl in need!
As I was mentally reliving my past Virginia Prince's name came up loud and clear.
If by chance you don't know much about her, she is an interesting pioneer of sorts in our transgendered culture. Her legacy still provokes quite a bit of pro and con discussion!
She also founded "Tri-Ess" still very much in existence today. Tri-Ess  bills itself as the (The Society for the Second Self) ; an international educational, social and support group for heterosexual crossdressers, their partners, the spouses of married crossdressers and their families.
Tri-Ess has more than 30 chapters nationwide in the United States, and is a member of the World Congress of Transgender Organizations.
The group initially provided me with my first steps out of the transgendered closet and ironically introduced me to many individuals of all sexual persuasions. I vividly remember the first meetings with my wife.  From rooms with cigar smoking men in dresses (before it was chic) to beautiful girls getting ready to out on the town, the group was wonderfully diverse. I met friends I knew for decades, had my first makeover and first attempted pick up move by a guy in a bar. That was only the beginning.
Over the years I grew past Tri-Ess but highly recommend the organization for those who need a high level of discretion or are just discovering  more of their female self. It certainly worked for me and is another huge reason I'm the girl I am today.

Retro Transgendered Girl

I get one question the most, especially from civilians who are new to the transgendered culture: "When did you first feel the need to do this?" (Their words not mine.)
For awhile I had sort of an autobiography on one of the blog pages about my life and how similar it probably is to many of yours.
I say similar because it if wasn't for a little twist or turn here or there we could all be in the same place. If by chance you are a fully changed transsexual, I've seriously considered that route more than once and could be in your shoes.  You could be more of a weekend crossdresser who could be more like me with the proper opportunity.  But that is not what I'm writing about here.
I believe many single gendered individuals think we transgendered folks had this great blinding realization of "hey! I want to be another gender!"
For one, I can say it wasn't like that with me. I can safely say I was between the ages of 10 and 12 when I had this growing suspicion that something wasn't right. I had a real fascination with the female gender but somehow, someway it just took a twist with me. Many years passed before I finally realized my fascination with women wasn't so much sexual. I wanted to be them.
I do remember as clear as day when I made up an excuse to dress in the few girl clothes I could buy with my paper route money and appear in front of some of my pre teen friends-makeup mini skirt hose and all. My quick introduction as a girl was quick and did embarass them more than me but somehow I never heard much more about it from them. I do know I wanted so much for them to like the way I looked.
We lived in a very rural area and one of my "get aways" happened to be the woods behind our house. I would abuse my Mom's electric shaver and kept smooth legs most of the time. I would sneak out past my brother ( a couple years younger) and actually go to this special place I picked just to feel the wonderful caress of nylons, bras and dresses.
One important question I don't have the answer to is how I kept my legs shaved as much as I did. I was a very athletic kid and played three sports. I just don't know.
The person I feel the most sorry for during this time of my life was my brother. I was always sneaking behind his back barricading myself in the bathroom experimenting with makeup. Of course he did catch me on occasion and that's another story.
On the rare occasion I was home alone we had a long hallway in the house that for some reason had a full lenght mirror on it which was a transgendered kids best friend! The slow trip down the hall admiring myself in the mirror was heavenly!
So that was the beginning of the journey which brought me here to all of you today.
As I have said many times all of this occurred way before the Internet.  For years I was certain I was the only one who felt this way.
Of course as my life progressed I know now of the sign posts which directed me here.
In future posts I will try to take you there!