She Went There!

Last night I ran into an old friend I hadn't seen for awhile.(cis-female)
We exchanged hugs and pleasantries and chatted along about life.
For some reason she asked how I was really doing
The answer that flowed effortlessly surprised even me,although I had given it much thought. I simply said "I'm tired of being a male in any part of my life. Once I figure out the financial considerations. I'm done."
As I said, I obviously have given this considerable thought but really had never vocalized it to myself or anyone.
It was very therapeutic! Perhaps I knew it all along but was afraid to face the girl in the mirror.Maybe her feminine intuition knew it way before me!
We finished the conversation with a brief discussion of the risk of hormones and surgery (which at the time I don't feel a real need for except in the breast department) and went on our ways.
It was very nice to see her and again and even nicer to hear from my "soul girl"!

Under a whole different topic....the pop up box you see on the blog is actually from ":Twitter".  I'm sort of experimenting with using it as more of an immediate input into the blog. So when you see really short incoherent statements, it's more than my incoherent mind. I'm still playing.
For example last night, the seats next to me produced a revolving door of different types of people. From gay guy with straight girl to two women to foreign guy to my friend.. that seat produced it all.
I will have to write you a post about the "magic chair"! It was quite interesting.

Transition?

I recently read a couple great discussions on  blogs I follow concerning the male to female life transition.. I started by reading "Stana's" review on her "Femulate"  blog.
On a personal level, I consider my life experiences as a girl as a transition.  I believe I've mentioned I have not pursued hormones or surgery yet. I have aggressively pursued nourishing my female thoughts and actions.
I guess it's the classic "what came first" question the mental or physical transition.
I'm very fortunate to have been able to mimic a woman physically in my life.  I've found that is the easy part. Over the years I've seen so many guys become the prettiest girls in the room to just become more miserable. Pretty is just the physical manifestation of being a girl.
I consider my interaction and acceptance in the public as a true sign of transition.
When and if I embark on hormones or any sort of surgery. I certainly don't want to be the bitter and lonely girl in the corner.

The "3 S's"of Transgendered Therapy

Sensory satisfaction plays a huge role in my transgendered life. In fact, being transgendered just sort of fades away. Apply what label you want (transvestite, crossdresser or transsexual), the sensual female experience is amazing.
Number three on my list is sound. As I was finishing my grocery shopping last night, I was acutely aware of the click of my heels.  This morning, the soft sound of my flip flops on the floor of the kitchen just made me feel a little more feminine.
Number two is scent. My own personal choice for years has been a vanilla body spray. The spray just gives me a light hint of scent when I move. I spray a touch into my hair which furthers the effect.
Number one of course is sight. From the soft swell of my breasts  to  long hair flowing over my shoulders and down my back provides deep satisfaction.  Toss in my manicured (stick on) nails and a couple fun rings on my fingers and I think you know the rest.
Much of this could be a reverse manifestation of my male life. If I did live full time as a girl, would the feelings be as dramatic? Probably not.
Would I know how the smell, sight and sounds of women effect guys. Absolutely! Maybe more so. After all, there hasn't been a woman born yet who hasn't seen or experienced what her sexuality could do to a guy. It's human nature. Then again, why are so many of us girls addicted to fashion? For ourselves? No for all of you male or female.
I have considered the narcissistic basis of all of this. My answer is yes I want to look as feminine as I can but be the best woman I can. Friendly and soft, I want to be approachable as possible as a transgendered girl in a sometimes crazy world. Then again...that is a whole different topic!