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| In celebration of Ostara. |
Today will be a beautiful day to get together with spiritual friends and celebrate “Ostara” which is the Pagan/Wiccan celebration of the Spring Equinox. The circle part comes in when the group is called together to start the ritual. It is supposed to be dry and near seventy-one degrees (F) today in the park we go to for the ritual, so you could not ask for a better day.
Meeting the group carries a deep meaning for me which goes
past the ritual. Joining my wife Liz as she went first to the rituals and being
accepted was just one aspect. It was
like I was adding a whole new barrier between my new feminine self and my old
male one. I felt as if I was climbing a set of stairs to just becoming a
complete me because in addition to attending the rituals, Liz and I were also
going to Cincinnati area meetups for writers and craft people. I was meeting strangers
for the first time when I was just me then surviving. I was proud as well as being happy about it.
It was like I transitioned for the third time in my life as
I went in a big circle. I started out as a cross dresser, moved to a
transgender woman and then back to me. I cannot say enough about the confidence
I was able to build up as I traveled my path from one stopping point to another.
In addition, I was curious about how going to the rituals
would affect how I viewed the world spiritually. I knew I had always been a
somewhat spiritual person without being a part of any specific religion. If I
was made to have a choice, I would always say I was Buddhist because of my days
in Thailand and how much I respected the gentle ways of the people. Anything
but Christianity which rejected the very basis of being transgender in not all
but several cases I had encountered. One way or another, religion is not a subject
I want to get into here. It is a point of no return and easy to get stuck in
stereotyping religions if I attempt to explain myself. So, I will leave it at
that.
As I said, I am really looking forward to seeing old friends
at the ritual again except for one who asks me what the transgender community
thinks about what is going on today. Finally, I quieted him down by asking what
he thought about what was happening to us. Fortunately for both of us, he said
he hated it. If he did not the circle may have been broken.
