Epiphany?

Is 'epiphany" a big word? Do we even understand what it means? I had to look up the spelling.
I always thought it meant an "awakening".
Whatever the definition, I had a "epiphany" tonight.
To begin  with, I wasn't going to go out. The evening was far along by the time I even started to get ready.
I kept telling myself I would take too long to get ready and why bother. Famous last words as I left the house in a half hour.
I went to two very crowded straight venues and never got so much as a side glance.
I caught myself on the way home thinking...What should I do to make the evening more exciting? Stop somewhere else?
Then the "Big E" hit me
Why have I always made this so tough on myself? From the first day I put on a borrowed mini skirt as a teenager and paraded in front of my friends I've always tried to take my "girlness" to another level.
Don't get me wrong. Another level is not always bad. Levels are how we advance.
Years ago I decided to take my life to this level of living as a female. To me that meant going places I would enjoy more. I had never really enjoyed the gay clubs and was trying to merge my male interests into my female self. That meant sports bars were in my future.
Obviously I was very apprehensive. This level was very difficult. I wanted to look my best and at the same time "blend" in my jeans. None of this was destructive. I was living a life I wanted to live.
Now that life has become relatively matter of fact. Believe me, I never would have thought I would have arrived here.
Now, back to the "epiphany". My personality is "what's next"!  Go ahead girl and push that envelope a little farther... but the push is often as painful as it is exciting. My thoughts turned to maybe I should just relax with the look I have and how I use it and where I go with it.
The best example I can share with all of you was Monday. I went to one of my sports bars and literally felt so good sliding into my seat and crossing my legs. I was already having a delightful conversation with a man that day, so the romantic texts I was getting didn't hurt.
Maybe, just maybe this time I will listen to the "epiphany" and stay put in my life right now. I can have more fun looking for new outfits than seeking out new frontiers.

It's a Beautiful Life!

Just when I'm ready to go blond or just give up for summer...something or somebody comes along to change everything.
I've told all of you about my on again, off again love affair with my dark wavy hair. I wore it today and all was fairly quiet as I finished my Memorial Day weekend.
A wonderful day it was as a friend touched my soul with his words. Making the evening even more interesting was my new found ability to cross my legs in my short skirt.
The absolute best part was when a woman I have known for years took the time to stop and specifically compliment me on my hair. In "girl speak" she was saying it was my best look ever.
That's two now.... I guess the dark wavy is here to stay!

I Love a Good Horoscope!

Then again,,,I don't believe in a bad one! from "the Frisky".
Libra (September 23- October 22) Don’t hold back and get too controlling about anything right now, as it’s spontaneity and being open-minded that’ll brighten your life now. Yes, slated on your astral agenda this week are romantic scenarios that put you back into the spotlight of your own life. Miracles will appear out of nowhere and love blooms alive. Just one word of caution, don’t ignore reality completely.

Thanks Trans Vets!

It's the day in the USA to honor out vets who gave their all.
From one trans veteran to all of you vets, .maybe someday we will see peace in the world.
To the remainder of you all, I'm sure you know or have a family member who lost their life in one of country's wars or conflicts.
Remember with pride, thank the living and enjoy your day!

Not Paying The Price For Fashion?

In my part of the world,  the majority of women have chosen skin over nylon for their exposed legs.Of course these women have spawned debate after indignant debate in the trans community.Why would they do that?
Some trans girls  wouldn't consider them selves completely dressed without a pair of hose.. Some consider the feel of the nylon too wonderful to miss.
The fact still remains if you are fashionable female under the age of 50 in my part of the world, you do not wear them. Exceptions of course are the women who need to cover up leg imperfections such as varicose veins.
I'm lucky to have the skin and legs to be able to go "bare"
I resisted for the longest time...until last summer.
I was looking for a pair of nude sheer to the waist panty hose for a long slit skirt I was going to wear to dinner.
I was not impressed by the fact I could just not go a big box store and pick up a pair anymore. I could find nothing in my size!  I resorted to the next best thing...a close shave and an application of a skin lotion that promised a "glow".
I have never been able to tan well so I found that a "glowing" freshly shaved leg peeking at a guy from it's thigh high slit was quite adequate fashion wise. An added benefit was being just a bit cooler on a hot summer day.
Sure, if you positively feel you are not properly dressed without hose, I certainly respect you. My Mom and Grandma were certainly in your corner.
If you have the legs and the opportunity to shave them, I highly recommend the "bare legged" look. As a genetic woman would tell you it's a chance to cool off and save some money.  I would add the delicious feel of rubbing your soft smooth legs together is habit forming!

I Hear It!

Just a whisper comes floating across my room. "It's summer. Go blond and they will come!"
OK, too many movies. I know!!!!
Still, it's inviting.
The problem is a radical hair change destroys the relationship with some I have worked long and hard to perfect.
Explaining new curls in hair  the same color is easy to explain. A total new hair color isn't.
I know you are thinking women do it all the time. The difference is that they normally don't go back quickly to the old color. I might want to.
I have considered doing it and going to some brand new venues and checking the responses.
I will keep you posted!
Cyrsti

Wow!

I felt a little adventurous last night. After all, it was Saturday right in the middle of a holiday weekend.
I 've putting this outfit together for weeks. Mixing and matching with no success until I just happened to find my black "flippy" skirt I loved soooo much!
I wore my off the shoulder top which came about half way down the skirt which came half way up my thigh. The choice of shoes was easy. I have a pair of decorated shiny black flats. The outfit was a mix of black and a olive green in the top and showed adequate skin for the season.
 The big decision was my hair...sexy and wavy or conservative straight with bangs?  I have fallen back in love with the long wavy style you see in the picture at the top of the blog. It is actually cooler than my long straight hair in the summer weather. So, why not? Bring on the curls girl!
Of course this was just the beginning. I was fortunate to have had an early day at work and had time to shave my legs and get ready. No quick shave, make up and out the door.
Decisions, decisions...decisions!
First I added some of the new "bling" I bought at "Charming Charlies" and picked out my black shiny bag that matched my shoes. Fixed my nails, slipped on a few new rings and finally was ready to go!
So...20 minutes later I pulled into a surprisingly busy regular place of mine. It almost seemed surreal. Was it really me walking through the parking lot  into an upscale pub/restaurant (bare shouldered with long flowing black hair) in a short skirt. A group of two men and women were standing by the front door. One of the guys was checking me out from head to long bare legged toe. He started watching me from the time I left my car. Obviously, he was either reading me for what I was...or wasn't.
I used to tighten up or even dodge these situations whenever possible.  But last night I through my shoulders back and slowed my walk down and took my time moving past them.
They didn't say a word I could hear...lol!
As the evening rolled on, the newness of the skirt (of all  things) gave me some problems of sitting and moving. I had to be very careful when leaving the bathroom that the skirt was situated right!!!!!
Speaking of the bathroom, it was very populated last night. Never had to wait in line...but it was close.  I do know I didn't convince all the women I ran into that I was all girl.
For some reason it didn't matter at all. The only thing a few of them had on me is that they were born female. Then were the others!
The women with style. The clothes, the makeup hair and bodies were the ones I wanted to chat with. Ironically, they are the ones who don't seem to notice me at all. I don't get to play in their sandbox!
That's OK though. Those women are and always have been my motivation to be a better girl.
There just has to be a better makeup, hairstyle or outfit that will put me in their league.
Every once in awhile I get a glimpse of how it is to play there.
Settling for just a glimpse is the difficult part!

Couldn't Said It Better!

Maybe I did...kind of...lol!
From "Creative Loafing Atlanta"  Comes a question about picking up a transgendered person.
After a couple stupid stereotypes, words and jokes, the "Sexorist" finally delivered some sound advice:
"First, look your best. You're dealing with somebody who takes extraordinary measures to look like an appealing woman. She is going to expect her men to have some pride in their appearance.
Next, be sure of what you want. If she senses that all you want is a piece of strange with a capital S, she'll most likely send you packing. She's not interested in being somebody's experiment.
You're probably not a little bit nervous meeting her, and you need to get a grip on it. Most likely the nervousness is from those questions banging in your head. As in, "Why am I attracted to T-girls and what does that say about me?" That you're gay? Extremely doubtful.
Most guys into T-girls are straight. That you're twisted? No. There's nothing twisted about being attracted to another human being.
One thing I can tell you for sure: Stop the stare fest. T-girls get stared at a lot — and most of it is not positive. Concentrate on being friendly. Say hello. And for God's sakes, smile. After all, it's the second best thing you can do with your lips.
Establish a pattern. Come in, say hello, SMILE, chat her up. Once it's clear that you've got some kind of connection, make up a nonromantic reason to give her your card ("Oh, I saw something online I thought you'd appreciate. Text me and I'll send you a link.").
From there, it's just a hop, skip and a jump to actually meeting somewhere. Leave your list of questions at home. Talk to her as if you'd talk to any woman, not as if you're conducting an on-the-job interview.
Meet her in a crowded place. It's really important to make her feel safe — by the choice of where you meet, using open body language, not staring, and avoiding any conversation that gives her a twinge that she's dealing with a nut case. It's easy. I do it all the time with my editor.
A couple of things you might want to keep in mind — do not assume she's interested in dating guys. A lot of T-girls don't. Whatever you do, don't be stingy and suggest you split the check. Pick it up. It's a sad fact but the transformation from male to female is not just a sexual reassignment; it's also a socio-economic one. They often break the bank to make themselves whole."
Following the link will lead you to some classic feedback!
Cyrsti

House Keeping in the Condo

I have always attempted to find the best blogs to link to.
Some of these links were supposed to be contingent on relinking to me or on content.
I have deleted several that failed on one or both of the criteria.
If you have or know of a great blog to link to...let me know! Please!
Cyrsti