An Incurable Romantic!

This is a difficult post to share with you, hopefully I can make sense.
Over the past year or so, Ive been so fortunate to explore a life as a transgendered female.  It has been an exciting time with more ups than downs. At no point in my life did I ever believe I could achieve what I have.
BUT! (You knew it was coming!)
I found I still share a certain naivety with  teenage girls. Take my "Flickr" photo account for example. I posted around 10 pix in about 6 or 8 main groups. In response, I got about 1000 hits in a month. I'm obviously flattered. Then the contacts and comments started. Many were very explicit and I wasn't flattered.
Now, I know one of the most persistent rumors about TG women is that we are gay (not the problem) and we share a certain promiscuous sexual lifestyle with that group. (a problem).
I'm slower than the average human and all of this slapped me hard this week.
For about the third time in a row I met up with a person in sort of a blind date situation.  This person was another TG so I envisioned a different evening. She was very interested in pursuing something sexual...quickly.
Which was fine. Just not my agenda.
The bottom line to all of this is...I changed my profile to include "sexually conservative". The last thing I wanted to do in any of this was to lead anyone on.  We all remember what those girls were called.
Maybe I share another trait with the teen girl. I still feel a romantic relationship is possible with EITHER gender.
So far however, the search has been more fun than the catch.

Did I see You On Springer?

Nikki Araguz, the transgender widow of the Texas firefighter could have possibly stepped onto the national stage years ago with a couple appearances on the "Jerry Springer Show?"

There was a Justin/Nikki on the show with a real female girlfriend not real enamored with Nikki's behavior in clubs and a guy not real enamored that he was fooled.
I'm not sure but there is a resemblance.Coincidence?

Want to be in Pictures???

Here is your chance. http://www.tranisa.com/ is in it's early stages of set up.  Tranisa is searching for models to shoot tastefully done features. If you think it's time to be discovered. You may want to visit the site!

Why Not?

Go back to being a guy if I don't want to be a girl 24/7?
Quite by accident I read the most appropriate reason not to on another blog.
Check the link to your right under "CD Janie's Blog".
By permission I'm going to pass along the highlights:
"With all the problems and conflict, both internal and external, you’d think that I’d just want to give the whole thing up and try for happiness the old-fashioned way. After all, I haven’t burned any bridges…
Turns out, I love Janie.
Turns out, some of that love I have always felt for women has always been a desire to feel what they feel!

It is one thing, as a man, to be attracted to women, to enjoy their way, to find them attractive and sexy – and I was, I did – but that was never all of it for me. I didn’t just want to be with someone who had the feminine characteristics I loved, I wanted to have those kinds of feminine traits myself."

WOW! I've never been good enough to explain to those who ask why?
Janie made it so easy!
Thanks

Do Blondes Have More Fun?

Can't answer that but can speculate they get more attention.
During the past week or so, I've done something I thought I would never do...go back to being a blond.
Why? I have been told I present better as a red head and I love the long wavy curls. I also have a dark (almost black) long a wavy look that I do well with too.

About a week ago I posted a few of the blond pics to my Flickr account http://www.flickr.com/search/?q=cyrsti&w=all. and received a lot of positive feedback. So on my next three trips out, blond it was!
As I've mentioned before, I rate my "presentation" level on a percentage on any given outing.
No matter how good the pictures say I look and how good the mirror says I look the blond doesn't present as well.
Last night, I think I figured it out.
Blond's necessarily don't have more fun...but they get more attention. If I'm a blond more people look so I get more of an opportunity  to not present.
God, I sound like a statistician or a scientist! Believe me I'm not.
The bottom line is that the fun and enjoyment of being my female self is change.
So, in at least the near future, this blond will have more fun!