M.I.A.

Some of you know I'm semi retired.
The main benefit of working more hours than I was when I had a regular job is that I pretty much have a 24 hour day.  Sometimes 3 AM is as productive as 3 PM.
The problem is when my life all of the sudden just starts to blend together. At that point, I'm looking for a place to hide.
Oddly enough, the best time for me to "run and hide" is approximately 3 in the afternoon...or go visit friends who moved to very remote areas of Eastern Ky.
The drive is about 5 or so hours from me and without stressful navigation of major metro areas.
A wonderful time to think
I planned on being able to post to the blog from my Android but didn't plan on being an hour out of any service.
I could say my service was fuzzy but my thoughts at the least had some clarity.
My gender progression is very clear but quite of few of other my life issues just aren't.  I have this huge problem of a foggy crystal ball and a need to cover financial issues.
Sounds familiar, right?
In the recent past, I admit a long term plan for me lasted about 3 months and I am proud to admit now I have increased the time period to at least 6 months.
Why? Because I have increased my knowledge of formulas!
Yes! All those years I trying to figure out why A+B+C=D. Really? Prove it.
I was wondering if that was true, why was I feeling like a girl?
OK, I know this is a strech but my point is I did figure out the gender formula only works for the Radical Right, Rad Femmes and certain chicken joints.
I also came up with my own life formulas for other issues.
Get your pencils ready:
A+B=C and if it doesn't, it will equal D and if it doesn't maybe it will equal F.
For me, life has been a shell game many times.
The clarity of the day slowed the shells down enough that I think I know what's under them and I can move forward.
If not, plans B and C might work instead.

Lee Pace

Actor Lee Pace went through some very drastic changes several years ago to portray Calpernia Addams.


From the "Soldier's Girl" movie:

Pace and Calpernia

Pace as Calpernia

Man Boobs and Beyond

The way I have approached my hormonal journey is a chosen slower, monitored approach.
Over the past 7 months, I believe I have tried to keep you abreast (couldn't help it) of the changes.
Recently. I think I have been the last to know.
Lately when I have gone braless as a guy, all of the sudden I'm getting a tell tale quick look to the chest area.
This is happening in my loosest T-shirts so I'm getting excited about the results...maybe too excited. (In the nipple area.)
In my part of the world there are more and more obese guys with man boobs so what's the difference between them and me? Very simply, shape and sensitive nipples.
Now I know and have seen man boobs with a decent set of nipples but I wonder about their sensitivity.
In the meantime, time marches on in my transgender journey and around every turn there seems to be another surprise!

Testing

Testing post from Android. I should be really afraid! Lol

I am Her, She is Me

Several times recently I have seen a person at a grocery store I go to all the time who I can not read the gender. As true of an androgynous person as I have seen for awhile.
No big deal of course but of course I started to think about how I view the public.
I used to constantly be on the outlook for another cross dresser. Have to tell you, without a lot of luck. Either the girls were very good in public, there weren't very many of them or I wasn't so good. Trans-dar?
How have things changed?
Well, really I don't care as much.
Let me see if I can explain it.
I have an old friend who I have mentioned a couple times who was one of the initial cross dressers I met back in the day when I was opening the closet door. He stayed in the cross dressing closet and of course I didn't.
We were discussing the "validation" part of presenting female. Then as now, having a guy on your arm as a "prop" is a very desirable goal. That's the easy part-in principle.
The "what ifs" come quickly.
What if you present as a reasonably desirable female and the man you are out with turns out to be just a little more than just a prop?  That little good night kiss becomes more than just validation.
At this point, my friend really had no idea of what that would be like and that's fine. He called the experience a morph of sorts and attempted to attach more of a sexual importance to it.
I compared the experience of morphing from a cross dresser to a transgender person with him to falling in love. If it happens-you know it.
I can almost tell you exactly where it happened and I can't remember what happened yesterday.
Finally, let me take it a step farther.
Using this process, I can work through the transsexual morph in my mind.  At whatever point in their life a true transsexual comes to a true realization of who they really are sexually. The transsexual's life becomes so much more complex than mine. TS's need to match the sexual and the mental  in their bodies- the ultimate morph.
By this time you are thinking "Cyrsti" this is all well and good but just where the hell are you going with this?
My point is of course I would notice an occasional cross dresser as would most folks.
It's just now, I feel so at home in the world...maybe I wouldn't?

Calpernia Addams

Transgender vet Calpernia Addams served as a Hospital Corpsman with the US Navy and Marine Corps.

Harmony Santana

Transgender Actress Harmony Santana:

Trans Stuff

From the "Hart-Land"
Seems like the "dog days of summer" are here.
I can only speculate the phrase means something to the effect your dog is tired of the hot weather and is trying to find a cool place to sit it out.
I don't really feel that desperate about the season yet.
I have for the most part enjoyed the wide wonderful new world of feminine summer skin and fashion. Absolutely loved it!
Still waiting for the Veteran's Administration "Advocate" to get back with me. It hasn't been a real long time but I'm trying to push her along.

So far I'm not going to be joining my dog in the cool place yet...so life is good.

"Horror Scope"

Libra (Sept 23rd - Oct 22nd)
"When you truly love something, you just know the words to share and sell your ideas to others. Even if you fell in love with a serial killer, you'd still find something redeeming about them to coo about endlessly.
After all, it's no one's business about what float's your boat. However, if you make your monologues encore performances without applause, figure out why.

I added a picture of transgender entertainer Venus DeMars which I feel to be very adaptable!

For your own "Horror Scope" go here!
"Horror Scope" is my own title. Don't blame theFrisky.