Tuesday, December 27, 2011

"Lipstick Boy?"

Here I was, undoubtedly attending my last Christmas with my family as a man. As I have mentioned, I m out to my daughter and other friends but not to my brother and mother in law. 
My brother and I are the oldest remaining members of the family which is now down loaded with about ten grand kids.
Two of his grandsons are approximately the same age, around 5. The first arrived with his 3 siblings (all girls).
I missed the first part of the conversation but started listening intently when my brother said "you don't want to be a lipstick boy?" I thought "what if he does?" He is truly a pretty boy with blond hair and blue eyes.  What if he does?
I have to say I don't think my brother will have a problem with me...or the grandson if true. Believe me I'm not speculating. Brother has never shown any indication of being homo or transphobic.
My mother in law would be shocked I'm sure but she would then be very worried about the health ramifications of my transition. To clarify, she is the mother of my deceased wife.
I really considered coming out to both around the Christmas holidays but then decided the holiday should not be just about me.
I'm not a huge believer in New Year's resolutions but coming out to the remainder of my family tops the list.
As far as the grandson goes? His Mom is really beautiful and good with makeup...who knows?
More importantly, she is a very caring, loving mother and I'm sure he would be in good hands.
Undoubtedly in 2012 my brother will be meeting the true lipstick boy!

REALLY????

From the "Daily Mail" in the UK:
Kerry Marshall, 18, who is currently undergoing a sex change to become a woman, managed to con a series of bank tellers into believing she was the television star, glamour model Katie Price.
Katie Price
Obviously there must be more to this story that doesn't meet the eye!

A "Natural Woman"?

One of the people who is very close to the transgender journey I'm taking asked me the other night what kind of woman do I think I will become.
Easy question, loving, giving, gentle and beautiful! Even though I wish I could achieve all those attributes, that wasn't what she was talking about.
Very bluntly she asked (love it!) when I leave the house day after day to run chores or whatever what kind of woman do I think I will be?  She used two examples on both ends of the spectrum.
Would I be the "natural" type of girl who basically throws on a pair of jeans and t-shirt and takes on the public OR would I be one of the girls (similar to the one she works with) who would never face the world without her makeup and perfect hair.
Good question and one I have thought about.. The great majority of women where I live are the so called "natural" types and I'm being kind. Female slobs are a better term.
So now I will finally have the chance to put my makeup where my words are.
From my perspective right now, here is what kind of girl I will be-the one I am now. My personal style is very ingrained and is who I am. So yes, I would prefer never to be out without my eye makeup, lipstick and foundation.
What I do hope happens is the hormones soften my skin and features so I will get to use less foundation. Electrolysis is very much out of the question financially currently but my beard right now is very much a one close shave a day deal. Hopefully, I will get a slight beard reduction but not one I'm expecting.
The other hair I want grow is on my head of course. I haven't had a hair cut in the last 3 or 4 months so I have a head start (no pun intended). I simply can't wait for it to grow to the point I can get it colored and styled.  I have no reason to believe my hair will not always be a major part of me!
That's my answer as of now and of course changes are predictable. The only constant is certainly change.
As I move forward I expect the time I spend on preparing for the public will decrease too.  To the amazement of many women my prep time is way below a half hour now and I already have a cleansing and moisturizer routine for my skin.
The bottom line is I realize being a girl is more work. I have done it for years. Just a labor of love I guess!
I still have to pinch myself that all of this is happening!

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