Girl Power

As I slid into a pair of long neglected heels the other day, I wondered why I had shunned them.
Sure they are uncomfortable to me and other women they say.  Women are"just paying the price for fashion". Ha!
As I went through the evening, I relearned what all women know. Heels possess a mystical power. Sure, the  ways heels improve your legs and butt are a certainty.
Maybe not so documented is the way men are attracted to the mere sound of the click of heels on a floor.
I did kick my heels off for a barefoot trip in the rain. I did though immensely enjoy standing straight and tall in a pair of heels who lived neglected in the back of my closet. Walking slowly and surely through a room in heels is empowering.
I need to feel more of the power!

Dial "Rose" For Advice

Rose Venkatesan, who shot to notice four years ago as India's first transgender television chat show host now is hosting her own call in advice show.
I wonder if I have unlimited international minutes on my new cell phone ( I still don't understand) and I could call?
Rose, I have a question.
If I decide to place even less importance in my religious background (which happens to be Christian) and more emphasis on an ancient Native American sprituality which recognizes 4 genders...Am I better off?
Rose would probably answer "Cyrsti, all that matters is how you feel about it."
Of course I'm fascinated in learning more about a culture such as the Navajo. In a previous post, I wrote how their ancients believed in 4 genders and elevating individuals who possessed these traits.
Personally, I wonder if any of this effects me. I believe it's a wonderful explanation of how I can feel so feminine yet not desire the complete sexual reassignment surgery.
I've often wondered why I've never completely possessed a notion I was trapped in a male body and my being would not be complete until my genders were aligned. Perhaps my being was trying to tell me I was both?
Without becoming too deep, I wonder how all of this works with the demise of my male soul. Is he still there just feminized somehow?
Finally (for this post) how does this gender evolve fit in with the basic fact I used to feel a strong fetish involvement with female clothing. Did the ancients believe it would have been a manifestation of the female soul trying to express herself and the male soul reacting to it?
Maybe "Rose" could provide an insight? She is Hindu I assume and I don't know how her religion approaches transgendered humans.
The only real answer should come from the Navajo themselves. Unfortunately a 16 year old dual gendered boy was murdered in their culture. One act does not doom a whole culture but it does seem to make them more inaccessible.
The only answer comes from me it seems. Sorry Rose.  I can save my international minutes.

Barefoot in the ????

I decided to change my plans a bit last night.
I wore heels (with my jeans) and changed where I went...somewhat.
The goal was to get out of the comfort zone and see what the world had to offer.
All went well until I had to make a quick bathroom stop.  I remembered one of the big box stores on the way has very accessible bathrooms as you come in the store. On top of all of this, it was pouring down rain and I had kicked off my heels as I made the 20 min drive.
Fortunately, as I pulled up in front of the store it was later in the evening and only a few people were waiting to run to their cars.
Desperate times call for desperate measures and I decided quickly to pull up in the loading zone and run in barefoot.  No one could have really told I had no shoes because my jeans covered all but a few painted toes.
I have no idea what the guy thought as I hustled by and into the women's room. I did make it with no disaster and he and wife didn't give me a second look on the way out.
Interestingly, going barefoot in any situation is totally out in my guy life. Believe me I don't condone barefoot restroom trips at all. 
I just would have liked to know what the man thought about the tall blond who rushed out of the rain... past him and into the restroom.  One way or another I probably made his evening a little less mundane!