As transgender women and men, who we really are at times causes us significant mental duress.
|Liz and I|
As I have written in depth before here in Cyrsti's Condo, all of my gender stress and tension led me to a very active suicide attempt.
It's no surprise too, so many transgender folk go back and forth wondering about their gender choices. After all, there
are too many instances of transitioning trans women or men losing family and/or jobs. Too many become desperately lonely.
It's tough, we are stuck in one of the most difficult journeys a human being can make. It's so difficult and complex, we have a very tough time even explaining to others we didn't have a choice to journey down the gender path we are on.
My answer to who I am in reality comes in a large part from my interaction with my partner Liz. When my gender dysphoria is getting me down, she reminds me in so many ways I am so much more of a girl than she is.
I am also fortunate to have the effects of my hormone replacement therapy to fall back on. When I awake in the morning I have the immediate reality of my hair and breasts reminding me of who I have become. As shallow as at of that may seem, the bottom line is through all of this I am just me.
These days though it's easier to express me in a truer form in the public's eye. It's who I really am.