Wednesday, February 20, 2019

Just a Little Piece of Plastic

Yesterday when my hematologist was checking me over, he asked me to raise my sweater so he could check my stomach. Along the way, he noticed my two estrodial patches on my sides and asked what they were.

He didn't ask what they were for. If he did, the simplest answer would have been, the patches make me the person I am today. Then I began to think about it on the way home, maybe he didn't realize I was transgender. 

For sure, all the long term positive feminizing effects of the hormones have kicked in, allowing me more gender freedom than I have ever known. Plus, the debilitating effects of my MtF gender dysphoria have decreased. Normally, I thank a higher power for my opportunity to go on HRT (hormone replacement treatment) daily.

Then I began to think of all of those trans people who for whatever reason can't go on the hormonal journey I did. I wanted to write you have all my respect. I know many are restricted medically from taking the HRT route and just as many have potential lifestyle issues with family and employment. Neither a great way to address gender dysphoria.

Now I have to worry about the VA changing my patches to a lesser effective generic brand of patch like they did to the trans woman I had lunch with yesterday. I have heard there was a shortage. I have enough patches to get through the next couple of months, so we shall see!


  1. Well, at least he didn't ask you to drop your pants! What's THAT????:-)

    I'm pretty sure that gender dysphoria is as individual as the person who has it. As such, any measures taken toward alleviating one's dysphoria would yield results that are different than anyone else's. Whether it be HRT, GRS, FFS, tracheal shave, breast implants, body sculpturing, beard removal, or any other medical/medicinal prescription, the effectiveness of any or all of these vary.

    Yesterday, as I was reading an article addressing "transgenderism", I began thinking that the author was not so much referring to gender dysphoria (as I know it for myself) as they were transgender dysphoria. In the first place, I really don't know what "transgenderism" is. I will accept the title of transgender woman as far as it designates my self-identified gender to be different than a doctor's designation of my gender at the time of my birth. That is my reality, I suppose, but it is still only an explanation for my situation. My earliest memories are not that I saw myself growing up to be a transgender woman, but a woman. I still see myself that way. My main dysphoria is wrapped up in the fact that I want everyone else to see me that way, as well. Even if I were to complete the laundry list above, though, I don't know how many more people would see me as a woman, and not just a transgender woman. Knowing who I am, without any of those enhancements, is infinitely more important.

    Being one of those you mention as having medical restrictions, I appreciate your respect. (I will even take it as a compliment, as plucking one of those from you is like going through electrolysis:-)
    I'm not so prone to dish out compliments, myself, but I must say that I respect you for coming to grips with who you are as a woman before you embarked on the HRT. I do believe that HRT, et al, is complementary to one's femininity; compliments are just icing on the cake.

  2. Unfortunately the VA is doing a lot of medication changes. They must be getting cut rate pricing but don't realize that the meds they are getting are exactly what they are paying for - lower effectiveness. You can ask your doctor to request the brand that you are using now after using the generic brand.