Thursday, September 9, 2010

TransgenderTrap?

"Trapped in a man's body" is a phrase that has received a lot of attention over the years in the transgender community.
During the past week and a half I've been trapped in that body.(I have a brutal work schedule and have not been able to play) But have I really been trapped in that body at all?
That body has treated me well over the years. It has been blessed with excellent health and some questionable intelligence.
More importantly that body has allowed Cyrsti to be a kept woman. It still earns the income for her existence.
That body has also provided the basics to go out in the world as a female. It has had the basics to jump the gender barrier.
Drawbacks? Sure! The size that allowed some athletic action and less bullying as a youth had it's benefits. Now the bigger wrists and broader back are not so useful.
However, as age increases I'm experiencing a natural hormone replacement therapy. The once dark body hair has grayed and thinned considerably. Leg hair is easier to keep under control and beard cover is much easier. In addition, my skin is softening noticeably.
The biggest drawback are breasts. If a genie jumped out of a bottle and granted me 3 requests-breasts would be very high up the list. In the future a full time girl existence is very possible. I can't put that body through all the surgery but I would put it through breast enhancement. I just want the sensuality!
Well, it's obvious you can't have your cake and eat it too. The calories just go to your hips! But as the "Rolling Stones" once sang-"You don't always get what you want, but sometimes you get what you need."
That body has given me that. I guess I was never trapped in it anyhow!

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